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▸PLAYER
Name: Tor
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kaijou
Age: over 18
Other Characters Played: n/a
▸CHARACTER
Name: Kise Ryouta
Journal:![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
redoubles
Canon: Kuroko no Basket
Age: 17
Canon Point: end of series
Background Information: character wiki page
Personality:
Kise is cheerful and outgoing, with a laid back personality that allows him to get along well with most people he meets. Though he tends to remain distant unless impressed by someone, when he does try to make friends, he does so easily and even his rivalries are generally more amiable and teasing than bitter. Though highly motivated as a member of a national-level basketball team, Kise is shown to treat members of opposing teams with friendly competitive spirit, particularly the former members of his middle school team who are now his major rivals in high school. When a rival he respects is playing poorly in a match against another team due to preoccupation, Kise even goes so far as to give that rival encouragement in the form of a much-needed wake up call. Even in the face of indifference or coldness, Kise maintains his cheerful attitude, brushing off any indications from his friends that they find his energetic friendliness overwhelming or even outright annoying. When confronted with outright antagonism, Kise prefers to avoid violence and keep his cool, maintaining a polite façade while showing his dislike. Though he claims he isn’t mature enough to ignore a challenge, he is also very aware of his public image as a professional model, and takes care not to engage in fights that would damage his reputation or eligibility to play basketball.
At times, Kise is prone to joking melodramatics, such as theatrically pretending to cry when one of his former teammates turns down an offer to join Kise’s team. He’s nosy, seeing no reason not to ask around about the people on his team and what’s going on in his friends’ lives, and persists in often calling and texting his friends even in the face of being told to “go die.” In general, Kise is somewhat airheaded and prone to flights of fancy – in the official novels for the series, he imagines the epic tale of one of his friends becoming a Dance Dance Revolution legend, and he allows his teammates to force him into helping them attempt to pick up girls. However, this airheadedness is mostly a show. Kise only allows himself to be pushed as far as he’s willing to be pushed, and when he’s on the court (or in other serious situations), all traces of his flightiness vanish, revealing a serious face that is so at odds with his appearance and usual bearing that even rival players have remarked upon how he seems way too intense. While his flighty nature makes it easy for others to underestimate him, Kise’s smiling veneer conceals a deep well of passionate feelings, determination and iron willpower. He takes defeat hard, going so far as to surprise himself by crying the first time he loses a basketball game, but only momentarily; Kise recovers from disappointments and turns a loss into strength and burning drive to practice more, improve himself, and take revenge next time.
These are the two sides of Kise Ryouta: his public image, charming, easy-going and somewhat shallow and airheaded, drawing literal crowds of fangirls to him, and the passionate, confident, and sometimes ruthless seriousness that lies beneath.
The source of Kise’s inner seriousness is his extreme confidence in his own abilities. He instinctively knows what he is physically capable of doing and what his own limits are, and he also knows that his limits are generally far beyond most people around him. This knowledge makes him cocky, even straying into arrogance at the beginning of the series. Kise has the ability to watch and replicate movements as long as they’re within his own physical capabilities, allowing him to learn sports extremely quickly, and this ability makes him self-assured and good-naturedly assertive. Due to his ability to learn so quickly, he has a somewhat low opinion of others who aren’t able to pick things up as easily, and this occasionally makes him a bit of a jerk. Kise is quick to judge others, such as when he first meets Kuroko Tetsuya, the series’ main character, and complains about having Kuroko as his mentor for the basketball club due to Kuroko’s basketball ability being worse than his own. However, Kise, once given reason to, is quick to change his mind and has no problem admitting when he’s made a mistake in judging someone. Upon being shown Kuroko’s abilities, Kise does an immediate switch in attitude and becomes one of Kuroko’s most enthusiastic friends.
Prior to the start of the series, Kise is a self-centered brat. He’s good looking enough that he’s a professional model and he’s able to excel at any sport he tries merely by watching others play for a bit and instantly copying their moves. He doesn’t study particularly hard in school, but he is, as he puts it, “kinda smart” and doesn’t have to try very hard to achieve things. Nothing gives him a challenge and he finds himself bored. This changes when he watches Aomine Daiki playing basketball. Aomine plays at such a high level and with such a unique style that Kise believes he would actually have to work exceptionally hard to copy him, and he decides to join Teikou’s basketball team to play with the person he admires so much because the thought of such a challenge finally lights a fire in him. Instead of drifting through his days in a bored haze, basketball, unlike the other sports he’s tried and carelessly quit from, can challenge him and let him have fun.
Teikou's team is based around a “winning is everything” philosophy and Kise adopts this style of thinking. He and his teammates become so skilled that they’re given the name “Generation of Miracles” for the strength of their abilities and these individual strengths cause the team to grow apart. Though he becomes friends with the other regulars, having no opponents who can challenge Teikou’s team sends Kise back to the boredom of having everything come too easily to him. In his boredom, Kise is inadvertently cruel, participating in a game within a game during the final middleschool championship match where he and the other Miracles play not to defeat their opponents, but to have the game end at a pre-decided score. At the time, Kise sees nothing wrong with this: the Miracles aren’t cheating, only using their extreme talent to control the game. He doesn’t give thought to how demoralizing this is to the team he’s playing against.
When the series starts, Kise is shown to have stopped caring all that much about teamwork when he can rely on his own abilities to get the win. He’s forgotten the reason he started playing basketball in the first place. For high school, he’s separated from the other members of the Generation of Miracles and chosen to go to Kaijou High. Kise is exceptionally skilled, easily the best member of his new basketball team, and though he works hard, he continues playing with Teikou’s philosophy on his mind: he plays more to win than to have fun. This changes when he plays a practice match Kurok and Kuroko’s new partner, Kagami Taiga, and loses. Kise’s loss to Kuroko and Kagami opens his eyes and makes Kise remember the thrill of playing basketball against a strong opponent. He remembers why he started playing in the first place, and how playing should be to have fun. The game changes him back to his previous self, as another of the Generation of Miracles puts it. Kise learns to love basketball again and puts his whole heart into playing for the sake of improving himself and meeting challenges head on.
Another turning point in Kise’s character evolution occurs when his team plays Touou - the school his idol Aomine Daiki has chosen to attend. When speaking before the match with his friend and captain, Kasamatsu Yukio, Kise learns that Kasamatsu desperately wants to win because he made a mistake that cost the team the win at last year’s tournament. Kise gives a superficial reason for his own determination to win, saying he only wants to get his first victory against Aomine. However, he is actually deadly serious, going on to say “I’ll win, even if it kills me.” Kise shoulders the weight of both his captain’s and his own desire to win, showing his growing commitment to playing together and caring about his team. He keeps a pretense of being immature, of being shallow and self-centered, but when it comes down to the wire, he can’t help but reveal that there’s more to him than just a pretty face and his own desires. This match marks the start of Kise’s journey to playing not for himself, but also for his team. He accepts his team’s strategy to foul Aomine out of the game even though it’s not how he really wants to play, because he’s started to learn that there’s worth to sacrifice when it’s for others.
During the match, Kise is able to grow further by challenging Aomine and finally copying Aomine’s play style. Kise shows a great deal of personal insight when he is forced to acknowledge that, deep down, he still admires Aomine and doesn’t want Aomine to lose because of that admiration. For his own sake and his team’s sake, Kise abandons that admiration and is able to play equally against Aomine. He is so determined that he overextends himself to the point of being unable to stand after the game. When Kaijo loses because Kise passes rather than relying only on himself, Kise rejects the idea that the loss is because he was weak enough to need to rely on his teammates. Instead, Kise recognizes that he couldn’t have come so far in the first place without his team’s help, and that the weakness is his own physical limitations, not relying on others. When his teammates don’t blame him for the loss, Kise still willingly shoulders the burden of victory for his team, accepting that his place as the team’s ace is to lead his team to victory. What he was looking for out of basketball was a team that would rely on him and support him in return. He wanted somewhere he could belong as himself rather than only another genius player who was only valued for his ability to win games.
As the Winter Cup tournament continues, Kise continues to grow closer and closer to his team. He perfects his copying ability to defeat his rival Haizaki, who he’d replaced on Teikou’s team in middleschool. This match serves as a very overt reveal of Kise’s callousness to those who aren’t his close friends; when Haizaki taunts him about having stolen his middle school girlfriend, Kise states that he doesn’t care about the girl or about having lost someone who was interested in him only for his status as a professional model. Things like a shallow girlfriend don’t matter in the face of achieving his goal and keeping his promise to meet Kagami and Kuroko in a rematch; Kise is focused on his own personal ambitions, on keeping his word, and not letting down the trust he carries with him from his team to lead them to victory.
When his rematch with Seirin finally arrives, he has worked so hard that he’s pushed himself to the point of injury, caring more about meeting the expectations of his team and not letting them down than about his own wellbeing. In middle school, Kise told Kuroko that he couldn’t imagine ever doing something like sacrificing himself to allow his team to win because doing so wouldn’t be fun. Through his time with Kaijou, he’s changed so much that he deliberately hides his injury from his team knowing that they wouldn’t want him to play on it. He makes the decision to sacrifice his possible future health to do all he can for his team in the present. Kaijou, full of players who will never be as good as he is, is still a team that he loves because it’s where he’s found support and belonging. His loyalty, once earned, goes to the extremes, and even though Kaijou loses the match, Kise, who once only cared about his own personal victories, has finally come to care more about his team than his goals alone. Though Kagami, Kuroko, and the rest of Seirin couldn’t overcome him as an individual, Kise isn’t satisfied with the win. He is no longer satisfied just with being the best by himself. He can’t feel good about a personal victory when it isn’t shared by his team and friends.
Appearance: look at this loser
Abilities: Jacking your style copycatting (if he sees it and is physically capable of doing it, he can replicate it), but nothing beyond normal human.
▸SAMPLES:
First Person:
[ Kise greets his "viewers" with a friendly wave, grinning at the camera with a sunny smile. His hair may be lank and a little greasy, and he's definitely had better days (back when he didn't know the world was totally wrecked), but he's doing his best to make up for that with sheer enthusiasm. ]
Hi! So, I don't know about everyone else, but I'm really, really sick of this place not having showers.
[ Or baths. Or much clean water of any sort, really, let alone plumbing. Kise's not normally all that fussy when it comes down to it — sure, he likes to be clean, but he plays (played) basketball, and if getting sweaty and gross was an issue, well, that is just not the sport to choose — but the lack of anything better than a sponge bath in the past weeks is getting to him.
He doesn't want to think about all the places he has sand. ]
There's gotta be more out there than this desert, right? At least somewhere with more than a puddle of water. [ He wants to believe that, at least, and hey, considering how the world works now, maybe that's enough. ] I thought I'd go take a look, but I don't really wanna go by myself. Does anyone wanna come with me? [ A beat. ] Preferably people who can keep us from getting eaten by any hungry monsters that are out there?
[ Well, now he's done it. ]
Third Person: test drive thread
▸ADDITIONS FOR CR TRANSFER FROM ANOTHER GAME:
Name of the Game: Ophiuchus
Length of Time in Game: 9 months
Summary of the Character's Activities:
Summary of the Character's Development:
Kise engaged in the requisite sex and while he could enjoy it and learned to appreciate a wide variety of encounters, he never forgot that he was having sex because the game’s gods were forcing him to. He went on all the exploration expeditions and adapted to being a stranger in a strange land, but he couldn’t forget that he was far from home and not by his choice. While he never gave up on the hope of returning home, he also was forced to see that he couldn’t plan for the short term as much. He grew extremely close to some of his friends from home and to others he met on Ophiuchus (some becoming even closer friends to him than certain members of the Generation of Miracles), and found the possibility of not remembering their relationships once they left to be terrifying; the assurance that this would happen no matter what they did led him to become even more cavalier with his own safety and boundaries in the face of the thought that nothing he did while on Ophiuchus might matter once he got what he wanted (i.e. returning home). As part of this, his natural proclivity toward desiring a thrill and excitement in his life grew, particularly as he was introduced to rougher sex and painplay.
By necessity, he became more independent and willing to call his friends out on their bad life decisions (sometimes literally, when they decided the revolving door style of death on Ophiuchus meant death had no consequences) rather than remaining willing to just accept his friends and their jerkassness as-is as he is inclined to do in canon. At the same time, he became more accepting of behaviors he would have previously considered reprehensible; survival bred necessity, and Kise wanted to survive. While Kise was naturally friendly in canon, he tended to form only surface acquaintanceship with most people. The breadth of the deep bonds he formed in Ophiuchus, particularly where those bonds were returned without any hesitation or dissembling behavior, deepened his tendency to sacrifice himself for others. This, coupled with a spell that led him to temporarily be in a state of mind where he enjoyed causing pain to one of his friends led him to the point where he found himself wondering what he was capable of doing to another person and seriously questioning how far he’d be willing to go for those he cared about. The answer (very far, particularly against people he viewed as at fault for their situation) was deeply unsettling to him, and he had not yet come to terms with the revelation.
Name: Tor
Means of Contact:
Age: over 18
Other Characters Played: n/a
▸CHARACTER
Name: Kise Ryouta
Journal:
redoublesCanon: Kuroko no Basket
Age: 17
Canon Point: end of series
Background Information: character wiki page
Personality:
Kise is cheerful and outgoing, with a laid back personality that allows him to get along well with most people he meets. Though he tends to remain distant unless impressed by someone, when he does try to make friends, he does so easily and even his rivalries are generally more amiable and teasing than bitter. Though highly motivated as a member of a national-level basketball team, Kise is shown to treat members of opposing teams with friendly competitive spirit, particularly the former members of his middle school team who are now his major rivals in high school. When a rival he respects is playing poorly in a match against another team due to preoccupation, Kise even goes so far as to give that rival encouragement in the form of a much-needed wake up call. Even in the face of indifference or coldness, Kise maintains his cheerful attitude, brushing off any indications from his friends that they find his energetic friendliness overwhelming or even outright annoying. When confronted with outright antagonism, Kise prefers to avoid violence and keep his cool, maintaining a polite façade while showing his dislike. Though he claims he isn’t mature enough to ignore a challenge, he is also very aware of his public image as a professional model, and takes care not to engage in fights that would damage his reputation or eligibility to play basketball.
At times, Kise is prone to joking melodramatics, such as theatrically pretending to cry when one of his former teammates turns down an offer to join Kise’s team. He’s nosy, seeing no reason not to ask around about the people on his team and what’s going on in his friends’ lives, and persists in often calling and texting his friends even in the face of being told to “go die.” In general, Kise is somewhat airheaded and prone to flights of fancy – in the official novels for the series, he imagines the epic tale of one of his friends becoming a Dance Dance Revolution legend, and he allows his teammates to force him into helping them attempt to pick up girls. However, this airheadedness is mostly a show. Kise only allows himself to be pushed as far as he’s willing to be pushed, and when he’s on the court (or in other serious situations), all traces of his flightiness vanish, revealing a serious face that is so at odds with his appearance and usual bearing that even rival players have remarked upon how he seems way too intense. While his flighty nature makes it easy for others to underestimate him, Kise’s smiling veneer conceals a deep well of passionate feelings, determination and iron willpower. He takes defeat hard, going so far as to surprise himself by crying the first time he loses a basketball game, but only momentarily; Kise recovers from disappointments and turns a loss into strength and burning drive to practice more, improve himself, and take revenge next time.
These are the two sides of Kise Ryouta: his public image, charming, easy-going and somewhat shallow and airheaded, drawing literal crowds of fangirls to him, and the passionate, confident, and sometimes ruthless seriousness that lies beneath.
The source of Kise’s inner seriousness is his extreme confidence in his own abilities. He instinctively knows what he is physically capable of doing and what his own limits are, and he also knows that his limits are generally far beyond most people around him. This knowledge makes him cocky, even straying into arrogance at the beginning of the series. Kise has the ability to watch and replicate movements as long as they’re within his own physical capabilities, allowing him to learn sports extremely quickly, and this ability makes him self-assured and good-naturedly assertive. Due to his ability to learn so quickly, he has a somewhat low opinion of others who aren’t able to pick things up as easily, and this occasionally makes him a bit of a jerk. Kise is quick to judge others, such as when he first meets Kuroko Tetsuya, the series’ main character, and complains about having Kuroko as his mentor for the basketball club due to Kuroko’s basketball ability being worse than his own. However, Kise, once given reason to, is quick to change his mind and has no problem admitting when he’s made a mistake in judging someone. Upon being shown Kuroko’s abilities, Kise does an immediate switch in attitude and becomes one of Kuroko’s most enthusiastic friends.
Prior to the start of the series, Kise is a self-centered brat. He’s good looking enough that he’s a professional model and he’s able to excel at any sport he tries merely by watching others play for a bit and instantly copying their moves. He doesn’t study particularly hard in school, but he is, as he puts it, “kinda smart” and doesn’t have to try very hard to achieve things. Nothing gives him a challenge and he finds himself bored. This changes when he watches Aomine Daiki playing basketball. Aomine plays at such a high level and with such a unique style that Kise believes he would actually have to work exceptionally hard to copy him, and he decides to join Teikou’s basketball team to play with the person he admires so much because the thought of such a challenge finally lights a fire in him. Instead of drifting through his days in a bored haze, basketball, unlike the other sports he’s tried and carelessly quit from, can challenge him and let him have fun.
Teikou's team is based around a “winning is everything” philosophy and Kise adopts this style of thinking. He and his teammates become so skilled that they’re given the name “Generation of Miracles” for the strength of their abilities and these individual strengths cause the team to grow apart. Though he becomes friends with the other regulars, having no opponents who can challenge Teikou’s team sends Kise back to the boredom of having everything come too easily to him. In his boredom, Kise is inadvertently cruel, participating in a game within a game during the final middleschool championship match where he and the other Miracles play not to defeat their opponents, but to have the game end at a pre-decided score. At the time, Kise sees nothing wrong with this: the Miracles aren’t cheating, only using their extreme talent to control the game. He doesn’t give thought to how demoralizing this is to the team he’s playing against.
When the series starts, Kise is shown to have stopped caring all that much about teamwork when he can rely on his own abilities to get the win. He’s forgotten the reason he started playing basketball in the first place. For high school, he’s separated from the other members of the Generation of Miracles and chosen to go to Kaijou High. Kise is exceptionally skilled, easily the best member of his new basketball team, and though he works hard, he continues playing with Teikou’s philosophy on his mind: he plays more to win than to have fun. This changes when he plays a practice match Kurok and Kuroko’s new partner, Kagami Taiga, and loses. Kise’s loss to Kuroko and Kagami opens his eyes and makes Kise remember the thrill of playing basketball against a strong opponent. He remembers why he started playing in the first place, and how playing should be to have fun. The game changes him back to his previous self, as another of the Generation of Miracles puts it. Kise learns to love basketball again and puts his whole heart into playing for the sake of improving himself and meeting challenges head on.
Another turning point in Kise’s character evolution occurs when his team plays Touou - the school his idol Aomine Daiki has chosen to attend. When speaking before the match with his friend and captain, Kasamatsu Yukio, Kise learns that Kasamatsu desperately wants to win because he made a mistake that cost the team the win at last year’s tournament. Kise gives a superficial reason for his own determination to win, saying he only wants to get his first victory against Aomine. However, he is actually deadly serious, going on to say “I’ll win, even if it kills me.” Kise shoulders the weight of both his captain’s and his own desire to win, showing his growing commitment to playing together and caring about his team. He keeps a pretense of being immature, of being shallow and self-centered, but when it comes down to the wire, he can’t help but reveal that there’s more to him than just a pretty face and his own desires. This match marks the start of Kise’s journey to playing not for himself, but also for his team. He accepts his team’s strategy to foul Aomine out of the game even though it’s not how he really wants to play, because he’s started to learn that there’s worth to sacrifice when it’s for others.
During the match, Kise is able to grow further by challenging Aomine and finally copying Aomine’s play style. Kise shows a great deal of personal insight when he is forced to acknowledge that, deep down, he still admires Aomine and doesn’t want Aomine to lose because of that admiration. For his own sake and his team’s sake, Kise abandons that admiration and is able to play equally against Aomine. He is so determined that he overextends himself to the point of being unable to stand after the game. When Kaijo loses because Kise passes rather than relying only on himself, Kise rejects the idea that the loss is because he was weak enough to need to rely on his teammates. Instead, Kise recognizes that he couldn’t have come so far in the first place without his team’s help, and that the weakness is his own physical limitations, not relying on others. When his teammates don’t blame him for the loss, Kise still willingly shoulders the burden of victory for his team, accepting that his place as the team’s ace is to lead his team to victory. What he was looking for out of basketball was a team that would rely on him and support him in return. He wanted somewhere he could belong as himself rather than only another genius player who was only valued for his ability to win games.
As the Winter Cup tournament continues, Kise continues to grow closer and closer to his team. He perfects his copying ability to defeat his rival Haizaki, who he’d replaced on Teikou’s team in middleschool. This match serves as a very overt reveal of Kise’s callousness to those who aren’t his close friends; when Haizaki taunts him about having stolen his middle school girlfriend, Kise states that he doesn’t care about the girl or about having lost someone who was interested in him only for his status as a professional model. Things like a shallow girlfriend don’t matter in the face of achieving his goal and keeping his promise to meet Kagami and Kuroko in a rematch; Kise is focused on his own personal ambitions, on keeping his word, and not letting down the trust he carries with him from his team to lead them to victory.
When his rematch with Seirin finally arrives, he has worked so hard that he’s pushed himself to the point of injury, caring more about meeting the expectations of his team and not letting them down than about his own wellbeing. In middle school, Kise told Kuroko that he couldn’t imagine ever doing something like sacrificing himself to allow his team to win because doing so wouldn’t be fun. Through his time with Kaijou, he’s changed so much that he deliberately hides his injury from his team knowing that they wouldn’t want him to play on it. He makes the decision to sacrifice his possible future health to do all he can for his team in the present. Kaijou, full of players who will never be as good as he is, is still a team that he loves because it’s where he’s found support and belonging. His loyalty, once earned, goes to the extremes, and even though Kaijou loses the match, Kise, who once only cared about his own personal victories, has finally come to care more about his team than his goals alone. Though Kagami, Kuroko, and the rest of Seirin couldn’t overcome him as an individual, Kise isn’t satisfied with the win. He is no longer satisfied just with being the best by himself. He can’t feel good about a personal victory when it isn’t shared by his team and friends.
Appearance: look at this loser
Abilities: Jacking your style copycatting (if he sees it and is physically capable of doing it, he can replicate it), but nothing beyond normal human.
▸SAMPLES:
First Person:
[ Kise greets his "viewers" with a friendly wave, grinning at the camera with a sunny smile. His hair may be lank and a little greasy, and he's definitely had better days (back when he didn't know the world was totally wrecked), but he's doing his best to make up for that with sheer enthusiasm. ]
Hi! So, I don't know about everyone else, but I'm really, really sick of this place not having showers.
[ Or baths. Or much clean water of any sort, really, let alone plumbing. Kise's not normally all that fussy when it comes down to it — sure, he likes to be clean, but he plays (played) basketball, and if getting sweaty and gross was an issue, well, that is just not the sport to choose — but the lack of anything better than a sponge bath in the past weeks is getting to him.
He doesn't want to think about all the places he has sand. ]
There's gotta be more out there than this desert, right? At least somewhere with more than a puddle of water. [ He wants to believe that, at least, and hey, considering how the world works now, maybe that's enough. ] I thought I'd go take a look, but I don't really wanna go by myself. Does anyone wanna come with me? [ A beat. ] Preferably people who can keep us from getting eaten by any hungry monsters that are out there?
[ Well, now he's done it. ]
Third Person: test drive thread
▸ADDITIONS FOR CR TRANSFER FROM ANOTHER GAME:
Name of the Game: Ophiuchus
Length of Time in Game: 9 months
Summary of the Character's Activities:
- Learned the basics of how to survive in a barren world. Man did he go at that butchering animals thing with enthusiasm! The space peacock incident will go down in infamy.
- Learned how to cook. Would still prefer other people cook for him.
- Learned the basics of hexing people. An enthusiastic student, but unable to cast hexes without spells stored in objects for him by his teacher.
- Also learned the basics of hand-to-hand fighting and a couple other miscellaneous skills like pickpocketing.
- HAD SO MUCH SEX. Look, let’s just say he put those copying skills to good use.
- Learned that pain and adrenaline can be a really exciting mix with sex. Was a little weirded out by how much he liked this, particularly when he was on the giving end of the pain courtesy of a spell that controlled his actions.
- Spent a lot of time being a Teikou Mean Girl and gossiping about all his friends.
- Built up a lot of bitterness toward the 12 gods who’d kidnapped him and his friends.
- Developed something of an “us vs them” mentality and discovered that he may, in fact, be willing to kill to protect the people in the “us” category if he cares enough about them. Extremely uncomfortable with this revelation.
Summary of the Character's Development:
Kise engaged in the requisite sex and while he could enjoy it and learned to appreciate a wide variety of encounters, he never forgot that he was having sex because the game’s gods were forcing him to. He went on all the exploration expeditions and adapted to being a stranger in a strange land, but he couldn’t forget that he was far from home and not by his choice. While he never gave up on the hope of returning home, he also was forced to see that he couldn’t plan for the short term as much. He grew extremely close to some of his friends from home and to others he met on Ophiuchus (some becoming even closer friends to him than certain members of the Generation of Miracles), and found the possibility of not remembering their relationships once they left to be terrifying; the assurance that this would happen no matter what they did led him to become even more cavalier with his own safety and boundaries in the face of the thought that nothing he did while on Ophiuchus might matter once he got what he wanted (i.e. returning home). As part of this, his natural proclivity toward desiring a thrill and excitement in his life grew, particularly as he was introduced to rougher sex and painplay.
By necessity, he became more independent and willing to call his friends out on their bad life decisions (sometimes literally, when they decided the revolving door style of death on Ophiuchus meant death had no consequences) rather than remaining willing to just accept his friends and their jerkassness as-is as he is inclined to do in canon. At the same time, he became more accepting of behaviors he would have previously considered reprehensible; survival bred necessity, and Kise wanted to survive. While Kise was naturally friendly in canon, he tended to form only surface acquaintanceship with most people. The breadth of the deep bonds he formed in Ophiuchus, particularly where those bonds were returned without any hesitation or dissembling behavior, deepened his tendency to sacrifice himself for others. This, coupled with a spell that led him to temporarily be in a state of mind where he enjoyed causing pain to one of his friends led him to the point where he found himself wondering what he was capable of doing to another person and seriously questioning how far he’d be willing to go for those he cared about. The answer (very far, particularly against people he viewed as at fault for their situation) was deeply unsettling to him, and he had not yet come to terms with the revelation.